One Desire.

Psalm 40 (MSG)
More and more people are seeing this: they enter the mystery, abandoning themselves to God. Blessed are you who give yourselves over to God, TURN YOUR BACKS ON THE WORLD'S "SURE THING", IGNORE WHAT THE WORLD WORSHIPS.; the world's a huge stockpile of God-wonders and God-thoughts. NOTHING AND NO ONE COMES CLOSE TO YOU.

Feb 6, 2011; Sunday
"The time is coming and I want to start preparing you to go. To serve. To help spread My love. You ask why you must do what's being asked of you now...it's because it's part of the preparation. To love others, you must love yourself- the woman I've purposed and created you to be. You hear them, 'I can only imagine'. Standing by my side. Heaven's not the only place where this happens. I am here now. You'll walk with Me, your time is coming. I wouldn't ask you to go if I wasn't going to be right by your side."
-Abba.

3.11.11.
I just realized this word from God wasn't exactly what I thought it was originally. It's speaking of my healing. He's asking me to go to those deep places, but to know He hasn't abandoned me and He won't. To love others, I must love myself. Work in progress.

Attitude

I am currently reading a book by John C. Maxwell called, "Make Today Count". Which I have found is pretty darn good already and I am only on chapter one. And by the title, it's about Attitude. I just felt like sharing some things that stood out to me in this first little bit. It speaks volumes.

"What you become is the result of what you do today"

"You don't make decisions because they're EASY
You don't make decisions because they're CHEAP
You don't make decisions because they're POPULAR
You make decesions because they're RIGHT."

Attitude:

"Your attitude is a choice."

"If you want today to be a good day, you need to take charge of the way you look at it."

"Appreciation isn't a matter of taste or sophistication. It's a matter of perspective."

Eliminate these words: I can't, If only, I don't think, I don't have the time, Maybe, I'm afraid, I don't believe

Say these instead: I can, I will, I know, I will make the time, Absolutely, I'm confident, I'm sure.

This book just really speaks about how your decisions today- yes today, as in Feb 5th, 2011 impact your future. That whatever decision you make now IS preparing you for something. You ask what that something is? Well, take a look at your decision and where it can lead you if you choose to do the right thing.

Mirror 2

Am I ready to force myself to sit in front of that mirror and take an honest look at myself? To look that girl in the eyes- the one looking back at me- and see who she really is? Am I ready to uncover what was lost? To know Ashleigh. My goal is to do this this next week. Because one goal I have for myself is to become more aware of WHO I am this year. No matter what it takes or how challenging it may seem. I know that God created me to be better than the person I am right now, that there is a purpose for my life...even when it seems so far off.

Mirror

I went to my counselor today and the session was really great. It really made me ask myself some questions about my life. I told her how I was feeling a certain way and if that was really a "feeling". She said "Of course it is". But she also explained how it was something deeper than what I was feeling on the surface- that it was something about how I felt about myself inside but manifesting on the outside. She posed the question, "Who do you see when you look in the mirror?" Of course, the physical was what first came to my mind. But no, she took it deeper, she told me to look into the eyes of who I saw in the mirror and really look at that girl. And write about what I see. Wow- talk about a challenge. It's so easy to look and write down what I see on the surface, but to really dig deep and try to express what I feel when I really look at me? I think that's something we all should do...not just me. And to be honest, I haven't looked in that mirror since I came home from that appointment. What will I see when I really look?